It seems like forever..

Oh my goodness it seems like I have been trying to lose weight FOREVER...  Well it hasn't been forever but its been a long time.. I started my journey back in January of 2012 and in November of 2012 I hit 70 pounds lost and since then I have bounced back n forth between 60 and 65..  Well today I got back to that 70 marker and I want to make it to 75... 

So I guess its goal time again...  So between today and the first time I weigh in 2016 which will be January 4th which is nine weeks I want to be down a total of 80 pounds so that's 10 pounds between now and January 4...  That's a little over one pound a week, I get so nervous when I get goals but I know that I can't stay where I am at right now...  My husband and I would love to get pregnant but I want to be at a healthier weight first...  I want to be able to ride in an airplane without a seat belt extender...  I want to be around for my family...  So if I have all these wants then I need to have some action to go along with them...

So I was having a moment of weakness today and a stressful day grabbed some chocolate pringles which is not what I needed at all...  So yes I sat and munched on them then I felt horrible about eating them...  I know myself I would  have munched on them the rest of the day and probably into the night...  So I took them outside and crushed them..  Yes I know some say its a waste of food and yes it is but I had to do it for myself....


So there is my new goal down a total of 80 pounds by January 4th 2016

Like a hamster on a wheel and Self-Sabotage

Well here we are friends on the start of a brand new school year and the end of summer getting closer...  From my title I bet you can guess what my post will be about this time around... 
This summer with all the busyness in my life I have discovered one thing about me and my weight loss journey...  First and foremost one thing I have found out something I do in my life is self sabotage...  When I  loss weight then that week I guess I am so much on cloud nine about the lose that I will self sabotage myself and the next week I will usually gain.. 
Then when this self sabotage happens I gain the next week I feel horrible about myself and really just want to give up...  But I know I can't give up because I really really want to reach my goal for myself...

So my self sabotage then leads to feeling like a hamster on a wheel that I can't seem to gain any ground or almost like the game I would play as a child which was candy land...
You remember that game with one step forward and then two steps back, that is truly how I feel a lot of the times..  If I don't get myself off of that hamster wheel and self sabotage then I will never get to my goal weight...   I WANT TO GET TO MY GOAL WEIGHT....

So I am simply asking all my friends and family to pray for me as I continue on this journey...  I want to see out to my goal..

Moving forward...

Well here we are at the start of February and we are moving forward...  I have really been working hard since the start of 2015...  I  have been working on not snacking at night and if I do get hungry I will grab for fruit first and not my old standby of a box of cereal...
I am really having a better attitude about my weight loss journey and really feel like I can complete this journey...
When I very first started this I was putting God first in my journey and staying focused...  As the weight started to come off I began to feel I could do it myself and stray off plan from time to time...  I am totally ashamed to say but I put God on the backburner of my journey thinking I got this all by myself..  Just like a parent does for their children I believe God said ok think you can do this by yourself, Go Ahead...

So  that is just what stubborn Shauntele did for probably a year I was just on a lose and gain roller coaster that I couldn't seem to get off of or get control of either...  As I stayed on this rollercoaster then I started to get depressed and believing I would never lose anymore weight also that I was just wasting money....  I believe we have to hit rock bottom before we will look up..  I believe God could see I was finally ready to take Him off the backburner and admit that I can't do this on my own ...

So here are my results of getting focused and back on track....  With God at the head of my journey...  Since the start of 2015 I have lost a total of 6.4 pounds....

New Year.... Clean Slate...

So here we are 12 days into 2015 wow time is already flying by...  So its a new year and also a clean slate moving forward on my weight loss journey...  The last two weeks have gone great and I have lost 3.6 pounds in those two weeks...  I believe not snacking at night has really helped with that if I start to feel hungry I will drink a large glass of water if that doesn't help I don't reach for the box of cereal I will go for the fruit first but really try not to snack late at night...  Also I have really been working on getting in bed at a good time, it doesn't work out every night but most nights I have been getting to bed at a better time...

January 8th of this year marks my 3rd year with Weight Watchers and to be honest when I started I thought  I would have done been at my goal by now but that is ok I am still sticking with it...  I refuse to give up on this goal because its so important to my life and future..  So just moving forward to that goal for myself...  I believe through this journey God is teaching me so much about myself that learning to rely on Him more and not so much on myself...


Update on my goal during the holidays...  I set a goal for myself to lose 5 pounds from Nov. 3rd to January 5th so I didn't reach my goal of 5 pounds but I am pretty proud of myself I did lose 3.8 pounds during the holidays...
I was so much more careful during the holidays this time than I was in 2013, I didn't deny myself anything but I also didn't just eat all day either.... 

So here I am moving forward and keeping my eyes forward and not looking in the past....