So here it is folks the raw and honest way I feel right now... I feel like a complete loser and that is the honest truth... I started my weight loss journey back in January 2012 and did super awesome that year and lost 70 pounds yep you heard me right 70 pounds but since than I haven't made any process... I haven't made any process for several reasons I believe and here they are:
1. I looked at the big picture of how much I have to lose and got discouraged about how much I still had to lose..
2. I got lazy about what I ate and my exercise..
3. I honestly lost my motivation too..
4. Also at some point I hit a plateau and than the other 3 came into play...
So here is the raw part of this... I don't like to look at myself in the mirror without thinking what a loser I really am... That is the raw and not so nice true about it... I look at myself and just think yuck... I used to go to Weight Watchers every week and I can't tell you the last time I stepped foot into a meeting... Also I would go to Curves at least three times and week so long since I have been there too... This is not where I saw myself when I started this journey in 2012 by this time I saw myself at my goal weight and well the truth is I am no where near my goal weight at all... I have honestly thought about totally giving up and just saying I don't even care anymore... I honestly haven't decided if I will step away from WW and go it on my own or not... Maybe that is what I need to just do it myself...
I find myself eating late at night, eating more
than I should, snacking all the time, not drinking the water that I know
know my body needs... Honestly I know what I need to do I just have
to do it... So here we are almost to Nov. 2016 and I want to lose more
weight before 2017 gets here...
I know that I worry all the time about everything and everyone in my life... So times my emotions get the better of me and I find myself crying out to God... When I started this journey I prayed about it all the time but I honestly haven't prayed about it in a long long time.... I need to bring it and lay it at the cross...
So here we are almost to Nov. 2016 and I want to lose more
weight before 2017 gets here...
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Sunday, October 30, 2016
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