Idol Worship...

So why can't I get this weight loss journey right and why right now do I feel like I am moving faster backwards instead of moving forward .....  That is the question that I have been beating myself up over for so very long... So in November 2012 I had lost a total of 70 pounds I was on top of the world thought I could do anything not saying I can't but I believe that's where I lost my focus and started to think I could do it on my own and truly not on purpose but put God in the backseat and not in the front seat where he should be all the time...

So I have struggled with my weight my whole life its just been a roller coaster of loss and gain it really has to stop...  So all this time I really couldn't put my finger on it and figure out why I was always turning to food...  So I recently started reading a book talking about idols in our lives and how we let them take over our heart...

The idol I worship in my life is FOOD I turn to it when I am happy, sad, scared, lonely, to mourn and to celebrate....  When I should be turning to God for this times in my life I am turning to food so that makes it an idol in my life and it must be torn down there is no room for it in my life....
When I let the food idol to rule in my life it gives Satan  a stronghold in my life and let me tell you he takes full advantage of this time too...  So I bow down to the idol of food and worship at its alter at that time its wonderful... 

So after all my worship of food it comes time to step on that scale and face the music...  I step on that scale to only see the number going in the wrong direction than Satan has me where he wants me...   I begin to think what a loser I am, how I am just wasting time and how I can't do get this right...
I want to be healthy for myself to be around for my family and in order to do that the idol of food has to come down in my life...  Those times that I turn to food for comfort or celebration are times for God...  No saying I can't have a bit of cake to celebrate or a meal to mourn with someone but above all that has to be God...  That place in my heart belongs to God and I have to stop giving it to the idol of food...

I am worth it and God deserves that place in my life....